So I’m all moved into my new place. I’m liking it a lot in some ways, and perhaps not in others.

It’s nice to have a home again. My time homeless was less then ideal. Couches and floors can do in a pinch, but nothing beats your own bed. Also, I’m able to keep the place much cleaner then my previous living arrangements, since it’s all up to me (the mess and the cleaning). Plus, the location is excellent. Those things are nice.

However, it is perhaps a little lonely. Mind you, not having the internet yet night be adding to the problem. I suppose I’ve just been used to having people around. This, really, is my first time living truly alone. From my parents house to dorm to Cummer to Keywest, I’ve always been living with friends or family. I’ve always been able to find someone to shoot the shit with when nothing else was going on. It’s perhaps something I undervalued before now.

It’s just a matter of adapting though, and adapt I shall. I think step one will be getting the internet: my communication. But beyond that maybe I’ll learn to make plans with more intention; to perhaps call people and ask them to do things. That seems obvious, but I think I’ve spent most of my social life just doing whatever comes up. It’s worked pretty well until now, but I get the feeling things will come up a little less then they used to. C’est la Vie.

I’m writing this from a borrowed computer, because I’m officially homeless. A couch will do for now though. I’m surprisingly at ease with my fate, truth be told. When I look at my life right now as a whole, homlessness somehow feels a minor inconvenience.

There are different levels of formality in
my company’s uniform: tie and blazer; tie, no blazer; and neither tie
nor blazer. Both the tie and the blazer are really quite uncomfortable.
My site is an “A plus plus” site, or so I’m often reminded. Anyway, that
means tie and blazer. But because I was the first guard there from my
company, I was able to establish a sort of pre-policy no-tie-or-blazer
type environment.

More then once they’ve given us orders to start wearing the
tie and blazer, but every time I find a way to cut them out. Usually I work my way down. Take off the blazer when I’m at my
desk, but keep it on patrols. Then stop wearing it on patrols. Then stop wearing it. Then take
off the tie half way through my shift. Then only wear it when I start my shift.
Then stop wearing it. It has worked very well in the past. Nobody
notices a change, so nobody complains.
And I’m comfortable in my uniform.

A couple weeks ago when they reissued the tie and blazer, I decided to
take a different approach (and I got the night guard in on it). My angle was the heat. It’s to hot to be
wearing the blazer at the desk after hours, because of course, the
temperature in the lobby raises when nobody is around (verified by my
friend Tyler, the on-site technician). So, they told me on
Friday that they’re going to be installing a new ventilation system for the desk. I think my plan backfired.. or maybe Tyler just thought it
would be funny. I never should have introduced him to The Office. Either way, I might actually have to wear the damn
blazer.

Yesterday I went on a four hour bike ride to clear my head. But my head is still not clear, and now my legs are sore. At least the scenery was nice.

Yesterday I was reading back on all the xanga stuff I used to write. And you know, for all the fancy and pretentious shit I was trying to do with defrex.com, I think I miss the days of Xanga. I like posting to a dark corner of the internet, where only my friends will find me. Thus, I think I’m going to start posting here again. Maybe in the old long-form style I used to use sometimes.

Though I’ll need to think of something to say…

I’m trying to fade out of Xanga, and not post everything here as well as on my regular blog. However, I don’t want to lose the people who read me here. I’ll probably post here occasionally to remind people that I’m posting somewhere else though. Check me out: defrex.com

There is a new design and a new post over at defrex.com. It’s a good one, too.

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Link to kick ass video.

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It seems our friends Keith has made another rousing point about the sad state of our neighbors to the south.

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