So I'm all moved into my new place. I'm liking it a lot in some ways, and perhaps not in others.

It's nice to have a home again. My time homeless was less then ideal. Couches and floors can do in a pinch, but nothing beats your own bed. Also, I'm able to keep the place much cleaner then my previous living arrangements, since it's all up to me (the mess and the cleaning). Plus, the location is excellent. Those things are nice.

However, it is perhaps a little lonely. Mind you, not having the internet yet night be adding to the problem. I suppose I've just been used to having people around. This, really, is my first time living truly alone. From my parents house to dorm to Cummer to Keywest, I've always been living with friends or family. I've always been able to find someone to shoot the shit with when nothing else was going on. It's perhaps something I undervalued before now.

It's just a matter of adapting though, and adapt I shall. I think step one will be getting the internet: my communication. But beyond that maybe I'll learn to make plans with more intention; to perhaps call people and ask them to do things. That seems obvious, but I think I've spent most of my social life just doing whatever comes up. It's worked pretty well until now, but I get the feeling things will come up a little less then they used to. C'est la Vie.

There are different levels of formality in my company's uniform: tie and blazer; tie, no blazer; and neither tie nor blazer. Both the tie and the blazer are really quite uncomfortable. My site is an "A plus plus" site, or so I'm often reminded. Anyway, that means tie and blazer. But because I was the first guard there from my company, I was able to establish a sort of pre-policy no-tie-or-blazer type environment.

More then once they've given us orders to start wearing the tie and blazer, but every time I find a way to cut them out. Usually I work my way down. Take off the blazer when I'm at my desk, but keep it on patrols. Then stop wearing it on patrols. Then stop wearing it. Then take off the tie half way through my shift. Then only wear it when I start my shift. Then stop wearing it. It has worked very well in the past. Nobody notices a change, so nobody complains. And I'm comfortable in my uniform.

A couple weeks ago when they reissued the tie and blazer, I decided to take a different approach (and I got the night guard in on it). My angle was the heat. It's to hot to be wearing the blazer at the desk after hours, because of course, the temperature in the lobby raises when nobody is around (verified by my friend Tyler, the on-site technician). So, they told me on Friday that they're going to be installing a new ventilation system for the desk. I think my plan backfired.. or maybe Tyler just thought it would be funny. I never should have introduced him to The Office. Either way, I might actually have to wear the damn blazer.

Yesterday I was reading back on all the xanga stuff I used to write. And you know, for all the fancy and pretentious shit I was trying to do with defrex.com, I think I miss the days of Xanga. I like posting to a dark corner of the internet, where only my friends will find me. Thus, I think I'm going to start posting here again. Maybe in the old long-form style I used to use sometimes.

Though I'll need to think of something to say...

There is a new design and a new post over at defrex.com. It's a good one, too.

Link to kick ass video.

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