March 12, 2004

  • Indecision and apathy get me again, except this time I don't know what's right. If I did, it might be easier. But the size of it, the complication of it, I'd rather just lie here in bed, not sleeping due to the speed of my brain. Should I talk it out, try to understand? Try and know what I should do: so that I can escape apathy. Should I let it be? Finding would be hard, solving even worst. Doing nothing, as I'm tempted to do, and well might be what I ought, is so easy. But... if I'm wrong: if my motivation for doing nothing is located in my apathy, and not in my intellect, I could harm: prolong the suffering of one I care for.