The keenest sorrow is to recognize ourselves as the sole cause of all our adversities.
  - Sophocles

He forgets to mention that it's also the wisest. A shitty deal, really.

They say if you love something, give it away. How can that be true; it
seems so far from the truth. 'Cause you'd end up with nothing; you'd
have nothing to love. And what you gave away would have nothing; it'd
seperated from your love. So where is the wisdom in this?

Oh Lord, take my life, my mistakes, my love, my sorrow
Do with them what you will

So... I'm dropping out of Tyndale.

I've realised the foolishness of my being at this school. I'm not an
academic, not even close. I don't even enjoy classes (PHIL3000+
excluded). I don't want to be a professor. I can't even see myself
making it through the rest of my BA, never mind my master's and PHD.
The
truth is, I came back because I was bored with my life, and I didn't
want to disappoint my father. But I'm taking on $9100 in debt this year
alone, totaling an estimated $41000 for the whole degree. All this
to do something I don't want to do, that will not lead to a career for
me. If I drop this week, then I only end up spending about $1800 on
this semester, instead of double that.

I'm going to start working full time, and start paying off my OSAP.
Next September I want to attend a tech collage of some kind: take
programming. I'll be paying about a quarter of the tuition, and might
even be able to swing it without OSAP (that'll depend on how much the
job I get pays). This way, I'll be able to finish in only two more
years, and I'll enjoy my whole program, and not just a small fraction
of it. Who knows? I might even get some credits transferred. Even if
I don't, I'll be able to start looking for a real job by the time I'm
23.

So there it is. No more Tyndale.

In the (slightly altered) words of Ani Difranco:


She did not design this game


She did not name the stakes


She just happens to like apples


And she is not afraid of snakes

Pitty she is not my wife