Some interesting things about my life right now.

- The Pakistani fellow I work with 4 days a week sometimes brings me
dinner his wife made. I enjoy Indian food ever so much. It's funnythough, he
always makes a point of telling me how I can eat this particular dish,
because it's not to hot for me. When I have it, it's always quite hot. I can't
decide whether he's screwing with me by telling me it's not hot, or
whether I'm just a puss.

- I'm getting ready to lead my first RPG. It's not even D&D. It's
World of Darkness style; Mage: The Awakening. I'm getting real excited
at the prospect. I had somehow imagined being a DM would be a lot more
work and a lot less fun, but I was wrong. I'm totally digging coming
up with scenarios for the players.

- I just got a 19" wide screen LCD monitor. W00t.

- A while ago my iPod broke. Apple customer service is great. It basically went like this:

Me: "Um... My iPod broke."

Tech: "Ok, sir, what's wrong with it?"

Me: "... I think it's unhappy. I may have offended it."

Tech: "That's common, sir. One moment."

[He goes into the back room for a moment]

Tech: "Ok, sir, here you go."

[He hands me a new iPod]

Me: "Really, that's it?"

Tech: "Yup."

Me: "Oh... Thanks."

[I eye him suspiciously as I walk away]

- My birthday is coming up. Though my parents had their own ideas, I took the liberty of asking for a new graphics card or a coffee maker instead.

So that's all I have to say. Good day to you..

A handful of insignificant words and I am completely undone. Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fuck!

How has this happened to me?

Hours after I wrote my last post I finaly prayed a simple prayer, that
God would give me sleep. I was sleeping miniuts later. I thought you
might like to know.

On a night like tonight, it feels as it did on that Forsaken Halloween,
and I desire, more than all else, to feel her embrace again. I play the
playlist that has served as a soundtrack to my misery, and my instincts
look to dink or smoke to scare away this demon. But there are other
demons who would feed off those tools, so I fight the urge and make tea.

Now I sip tea. I wonder why I'm afraid to seek comfort in my God, whom
I know would give it with a good will. I wish blessed sleep would end
this night.