November 5, 2005

  • So today I was thinking about one very specific person, and how I feel
    about him. I honestly don't hold a grudge. The best analogy I can think
    of is soldiers in a war. It's true that we are here to kill each other,
    but it's not personal; we both just want our respective sides to win,
    because obviously each of us thinks his side is right. We're two men
    who are at odds with each other, though under different circumstances we
    could have been good friends. I could easily see myself doing all that
    he's done, if our positions were changed.

    I don't know if he feels the same way about me. I hope he does, though
    I don't expect him to. Personally, I only feel this way in my most
    level-headed of moments, and it's easy to slip into anger. I guess I'm
    like a soldier again: angry with my enemy just because he's my enemy.

    I guess it doesn't matter much in the end anyway.