November 17, 2005

  • I have trouble writing public posts. I write something and then always
    have some reason why it shouldn't be public. Sometimes I know I won't
    feel what I'm communicating in my post in a few hours, and that I don't
    want people thinking I do. Sometimes I'm worried that people will think
    differently of me if I let out my emotions when are not wholly
    rational. Sometimes what I write is based on such a wholly subjective
    reality that I know for a fact no one but me will understand it.

    I haven't always had this problem. I used to feel free to post whatever
    depressed blather came to my mind without worrying about it. I'm not
    sure why there was a change. I don't really like it, and I'm going to
    try and stop. So, I shall tell you now: what I post is only what I feel
    at the time I'm writing it, and not the constant state of my
    mind. It might seem sort of unbalanced because I write more when I'm
    melancholic or upset. Oh well.

    I think I might even go back and make some private things public.

Comments (5)

  • Who cares what people think. Just do it up.

  • Hmm.. it will be good to have you back on here. :)

  • you'll have my respect if you follow through with this.

  • public posts are open for semi - random people .. like me, to see
    im glad you have some posts public anyway or else i never would have found you and realized that it's .. you!
    and now you think .. who is this girl and what is she talking about?
    remember those christian music msgboards that marc scott used to run back in the day? i remember you from the boards! defrex! got your name by getting mad and pounding the computer keyboard one day or sth =)
    anyway, just saying hi
    and good to *see* you again =)
    take care aron
    blessings,
    narita

  • hehehe.. I like that I'm not the only one who was on a Christian music messageboard. :)

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